Im D.I.S.A.P.P.O.I.N.T.E.D...

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...
selamat petang.... who ever u are..
thanks 4 reading!

I just not in a good mood...
im disappointed..im confuse..

I call JKNT (jaba. kesihatan negeri terengganu) again today,
updating the progress of my request..
transferring back to HSNZ, kola terengganu..
n the result...
yupp.....not promising.
n i m feel really bad!
still...until now... my name is not in the list...
meaning that ..i need to stay another mnth in this hospital
till the next meeting..
tu pon belum tentu lagi my name akan naik next month!

its actually the 3rd time i heard the same excuse from whoever she is that answered my call
and im getting tired of waiting!

Ingatkan mintak pindah intra state will be much more easier then inter state..
tp bila dah macam ni....It make me confuse...
I rasa macam nak hantar form lain
but this time..mintak balik KL/Selangor terus...
tp frankly... i xsure wat best for me...

I like kerja kat jabatan surgery @ HSNZ
plus i already developed quite a good rapport with the superiors there..
which will help me alot 4 my Master nanti...

BUT...
working under JKNT make me SICK!!!
so much problem...
dgn pendaftaran penuh tak dapat lagi...
arrgghhhhhh...
tension!!!

Allah..please help me...
show me the path which best 4 me...
("_)

oh tuhan ...sinarilah kiblat ku...
tetiba hazami kan...
huhuhu

13th February

RETROSPECTIVE DOCUMENTATION..

assalamualaikum
selamat pagi...

I hav quite a free friday morning today
lps solat subuh, i swept the floor, kemas my rumah then having my breakfast while watching ASTRO.
Im waiting for my fren from terengganu to come over here today. We plan to go mandi kat air terjun berdekatan here n shopping kat KB Mall
I maynot shopping.... no more budget 4 this month..remember?
*sigh

eh I nak cerita pasal hari I turun KL hari tu...tajuk pon retrospektif kan..hehehe
skrg kan trend retro...
hehehehe

on 13th Feb..i turun KL meet my usual fren...
Ford, Rahman, Kema n Nazir...
We only met after office hour since they hav to work that day.
But i turun awal... at 12 I already in Kl...
I picked Rahman @ his working place n teman him to find his new shoe kat Sg wang
( yup..he PONTENG!!! dtg punch kad, breakfast kat kantin minum teh tarik 1 gelas je tp duduk berejam baca paper...online Myspace etc..pastu suruh I temankan dia cari kasut!!!! Voley?)

after he found his shoe we lunch kat SR and I hantar dia balik ke opis...tu pon sbb ada meeting dgn his boss. kalo tak mesti dah ikut aku melepak kat sg wang tu.
I went to Low Yatt, pusing2 around... looking 4 Mp4.
Dah lama mengidam nak ada Mp4 ni..tp asyik tak kesampaian je niat ni..
Im looking 4 the best Mp3..in my head I pod nano or samsung T10...

last2 i pening...tak tau yg mana satu..
so I made a talian hayat..asking my fren opinion
4 person..n its a tie result *sigh

I pod Nano..really cute! i like its new case...shape of a bear...comeyyy n it suit me!
wakakakaka
but ..yg x bestnyer...it only available in silver color.
in the other hand..Samsung T10 came with a not that bad shape, elegant black or purple colour, had FM radio, bluetooth!!! n its CHEAPER by RM 100!!!!

opss its already 530pm..
so i decide to come again tomorrow with my fren..
i really need their help to choose!
so i met ford at PAVILLION
then headed to KLCC while waiting the other three come to menyembah ratu..
*TONGUE*

i dont plan to buy anything in the 1st place..
TAPI....dlm x plan pon...I "subconciously" spent rm600 4 a perfume, baju keje n slack!!!
I rasa I kena pukau laaa ....
tak pon infected by FORD yg spending spree tue
boleh ke terima reason tu... ("p)

Rahman nazir n kema makan kat kg baru..
we? spent too much time shooping sampai diaorg x sanggup nak tunggu n headed to Times square, utk karaoke!
so we just met them there.
they bought us tickets for midnight movie..JUMPER!!
waaaaaaaaaaaaa suka!!!!!
we just hang out kat bukit bintang, minum2 while waiting our movie..
chatting, gossiping, watching people aka cuci mata hikss etc....

after movie.. nazir str8 away balik to seremban.
Kema n i slept @ ford house after hantar rahman.
they hav 2 go to work tomorrow morning.
i dgn kema je cuti esok..
kema kata cuti valentine hahahaha

the next day i g law yatt again with kema...
tetiba rahman ktepon suruh amik dia gak.
dia EL!!!! VOLE!!!
so kitorg bertiga jln2 kat low yatt
buying my new Mp4!!!


hidup ini tak banyak pilihan...
we hav to choose one of them..
people can give their opinion...
but it us who make the final decision...
it will not always the correct one..
but believe me... after U make really so many consideration including other's view...
watever ur final answer. it will never let U down!

Guess wat is my new Mp4?
hehehe
bersambung......

this month expenses....waaaaaaaaaa lari budget!

Assalamualaikum..
selamat mlm....

I know.. it quite sometime i dont drop anything here....

i just want to type down my expenses this month...

1) Makan Besar rm 400
2) Adik2 rm 200
3) Shopping @ KL -Mp4 rm 580
- Shirts rm 250
- Perfume rm 300
- Rencam rm 150
rm 1280
4) Balik ganu - minyak rm 80
- makan rm 100
- tol rm 40
- tiket bas rm 120
rm 240

5) Perkakas ghumah - TV rm 600
- ASTRO rm 200
- Peti ais rm 700
- mesin basuh rm 700 rm 2200

TOTAL rm 4320!!!

i paid it in CASH!
and it just in the middle of the month!!!
xmasuk bil elektrik,tepon,air, minyak kreta, makan, minum etc etc...
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

*pengsan

Selasa 12hb Mac

assalamualaikum..
salam sejahtera

Bosan gak cuti lama2 dok umah je...
So i plan to meet my fren...
Amran..( hehehe introducing 2 U my other best fren masa kat secondary school)
budak Meru..keje kat Cheras...
since dia keje..so we agree to meet after opis hour...

we plan to meet kat Jaya Jusco Bkt Tinggi Klang
Jaya Jusco ni baru je bukak Nov last year
largest J Jusco in Malaysia...
dah la dekat je dgn my house..
10 minit je..
HEAVEN!!!

TGV pon baru je nak start operasi...
tp that day...xde movie yg i berkenan..
nak tgk JUMPER...tgk preview dia cam gempak jek
tp 14hb br cerita tu ditayangkan...
plus.....bila pk nak kena tgk sorg2..aku jd malas..xde mood!

so just round2..masuk from one kedai to another...
plan 4 window shopping je....
tp sempat la beli
sepasang T-shirt,
sebentuk cincin n rantai tangan (isk3...apa nak jd dgn ko ni falah...) ("p)
sebuah buku cerita..PINSTRIPES by FAITH BLEASDALE
chick lit type of book<----lantak la korg nak kata apa... janji aku suka... ("p)

then bila dah penat berjalan...
I minum kat BIG APPLE DOUGHNUT & COFFEE
konsep mcm DUNKIN DOUGHNUT...
sedap gak...lembut gila donut dia...cam mkn angin jek..
hahhahahaha

than baru la mamat sorg ni muncul....
ermm 1 yr plus dah tak jumpa...
nothing much different from our last met.
tetap gemuk..
hahahahahahaha
he got knee ligament tear while playing football..
so tu la reason dia xleh nak bersukan yg menyebabkan dia berisi..
wateva!
selalu kalau ada futsal game dgn kawan2...
dia la temankan aku jd penonton kat tepi..
hehehehehe

after borak2
tukar2 our latest cerita n wat not....
kitorg pon decide utk balik...
dia pon nampak cam penat je pas keje...
walaupon sekejap...
it worth... hilang sket rindu kat kawan lama aku ni...

next day punya plan...
meet my fren kat KL...
n...
SHOPPING!!!!
yohoooooo

blog..blog..blog...

Assalamualaikum...
salam sejahtera...



Bestnyer cuti....
pagi2 bangun xyah nak pikir pasal kerja..
X yah nak pk apa yg patut wat pada patients2 I..
who should be discharged,
who should be kept,
who should be referred,
or who should be let go peacefully to the heaven!
("j)



pagi2 bangun mak dah prepare breakfast...
pastu baca KOSMO..
i found an interesting article about a blooger

saharil.com

his blog!!! marvellous...
unique! different from others..
( coompare to mine...mcm langit dgn bumi....
his?..mcm di langit ke 7 & mine?...mcm kat teras bumi..begitulah perbezaannyer..)



mcm2 ada...
ada kartun,
sesi interview,
e card,
fairytales
dll


simple, klakar tapi bermakna...
dlm sgt maknanyer..
Hey dont forget to wear ur thinking cap while reading that blog...("p)


but its also a leasure....
mcm nak pecah perot kalo baca...
an anti depressant without side effect!!!

(khalil's words...hah..tulisan dia mcm KHALIL!!!! tp lukisan dia much much understand-able
compare to khalil)
tah2 korg seperated twin tak?
hehehehe



try urself!!!



p/s: ni sample...

makan BESAR...("j)

Assalamualaikum...
salam sejahtera...


Ermm Raya cina lepas aku kena oncall lagi...
(i was also oncall on 1st day of RAYA HAJI
DEEPAVALI...KRISMAS....THAIPUSAM)
COMPLETE!!! ("p)

and ONCALL on those days is realy2 busy...
semua nak bawak kerabat masing2 masuk ward...
pelik gak... suppose time ni la diorng nak berkumpul ramai2 1 family

sbb dah oncall time raya cina tu..
xdela makan besar time tu...
Tapi aku apply cuti pastu...
5 ari...from sunday to thursday..,,
I pon kompius...ingatkan will not b approved..tgk2 dapat..

happynyer dpt cuti lama2 balik kampung nie...
plus my siblings semua pon ada kat rumah...
bukan selalu dpt kumpul sama2
i hv 1 bro kat UPM
2 sisters 1 kat UITM,Arau & 1 kat bording school..
diorg ni la yg selalu xde kat umah...

So alang2 semua ada kat umah
I plan nak makan BESAR kat luar
plan..nak makan STEAMBOAT...
hehehe tp 1 kedai pon aku tak tau katne...

i contact la my fren around here
kalau tau mana2 tempat yg best...
mcm tempat aku dpt...

memula my family & 1 g Pulau Carey... perkampungan org asli..
(named after Mariah Carey...after she performed a live concert there) ("p)
kedai tu dah takde....ada kedai seafood biasa je

so kitorg heading towards bandar klang plak...
round2 klang pon x jumpa kedai steamboat tue..

lastly g shah alam...
jumpa restauran nelayan...
tapi dah 1030pm... STEAMBOAT is served till 930pm jek..
kempuanan la kitorg mlm tu..
sbb dah lapar...kitorg decide nak mkn kat situ jek..
Ala carte'....

biarpon x dpt mkn STEAMBOAT...
tp mkn mlm tu tetap best...
biarpon berhabis duit sikit...takpe
janji puas hati....
dpt mkn ramai2 as 1 family...

wat a great MAKAN BESAR!!!

My BEST BUDDIES....

Assalamualaikum...

Selamat pagi....

Hari ni ada plumber dtg umah nak habiskan keje2 baiki paip kat my house...

so aku mengular sekejap...abis round g balik umah jap...

dia dtg dah semalam time aku tgh best2 tido keletihan post call... tp ada yg x settle lagi.

so kena la tunggu pak cik tu habiskan keje dia baru boleh sambung g klinik..

( erkss...pak cik?...knape? ni sah2 berangan plumber yg dtg umah aku ala ala mike dalfino dlm crita desprate houswife kan...hehehehe)

so sambil2 tu aku on9 jap...write this blog.

menghitung hari....

detik demi detik...

dah 11 bulan aku dok kat daerah Besut ni...

*sigh...never tought i would stay that long here...

when i got the terrible news to be transferred here..i said to myself Its OK coz i gonna stay 4 only 4 months...then aku nak hantar surat request mintak pindah....

but until now....

Im still here.... *sigh again

Not that i dont like working here...

people around here are really nice

( i mean my patients...my staffs... definitely NOT some of my colleague!!!)

they really appreciate U...

Didnt I told U that i got ikan, udang and my fevorite SOTONG!!! masa musim candat sotong

by pakcik2 kat sini...

dah la umah aku takde dapur plus aku pon bukannyer tau masak...

so I usually bg benda2 tu kat my staff nurses..& they will cook them and pastu makan sama2...BEST!

And also lots of fruits masa musim buah...

peti ais aku tu penuh dgn buah2an n kekadang tu terpaksa buang sbb busuk x dimakan...

( INCLUDED one makcik who either ACCIDENTALLY termasukkan ULAR dlm karung buah2an dia OR she PURPOSELY masukkan ular tu sbb xpuas hati kat aku...)

tapi aku tetap bersangka baik kat makcik tu..mesti dia x sengaja..

PLUS yela sapa la nak wat jahat kat org BAIK HATI mcm aku kan...

wakakakakakaka....("j)

AND I guess sbb tu la I masih boleh bertahan kerja kat sini...

LONELY...

one of MAJOR problem yg buat aku rasa nak pindah je dari sini...

xramai kawan la kat sini.. sbb aku mmg socially retarded... kurang pandai bergaul...

aku cuma rapat dgn org2 yg aku boleh masuk...

and thats why i dont hav many friends ..boleh bilang dgn jari..

but my friends yg sikit tu la the closest people after my family..

thanks 4 you guys..MMUUUAAAAHHHH!!!!

( zalie,nazir, ford,rahman,khalil,ridzwan,hakim,rohe,jaihan)

cek deh tak?..ni je la kawan2 aku...

but believe me...biar pun xsampai 10...they are the world for me...

thay are all i need if im in trouble...

(of coz beside ALLAH n my parents la)

kalo bersama2 tu mcm 1 kampung riuhnyer...

ni la kawan2 makan sama2,

minum sama2,

lapar sama2,

tidur sama2 ( tapi x wat pape tau..),

mandi sama2( erkkk..pernah ek?),

tarik rambut dan sepak terajang bersama!!!!

Dah macam adik beradik...

So skrg ni bila dok kat besut...

They r far from me...

tu yg bosan tahap gaban!!!

kalo dapat keje kat KL kan best....

dekat sket dgn diaorg.....

ermmmm bila la nak dpt transfer nie.... *sigh

zalie, nazir, rahman, ridzwan, jaihan & eh.. mana aku?

baris hadapan :

Rohe', Zalie & aku

baris belakang:

kucing,kucing,kucing & kucing

belakang: zalie, nazir, ford n kema

depan : aku ("p)

MISS U GUYS!!!

p/s tiada dlm gambar: khalil n tupong

My Daemon...

Assalamualaikum...
selamat malam...

My latest visit to serawak...
i met my fren Zalie, Rohe' and Tupong..
sempat gak spent 1 nite kat umah Zalie...

tupong, me, rohe n zalie

After meronggeng mlm2 kat bandar Kuching...
kitorg balik umah ...already 3am that time...
B4 tido tu sempat on9 jap..
then zalie asked me wheather I pernah jwb quesionnaire what is my daemon.

"My what?" i asked him back...
"huh? ko dah tgk golden compass blom? " he asked me sambil wat muka...

I dgn tersipu2 malu terpaksa admit x tgk lagi citer tu...
Hello cant blame me either...kat terengganu tu mana ada cinema...
dah nak tgk mcm mana...dah la nak cari DVD pon susah...

so dia pon explain la dgn panjang lebar...
wat can i say.. minah explain ("p)

"Daemon ni adalah human companion in a form of animal in the magical world Goldan of Compass
it manifest our personality...bla bla bla..." he explained.

magical thinking!!! schizotypal rupanya kawan aku ni...hehehe ("p)

So dia pon suruh gak aku jawab quest tu walaupon kaedahnyer dah kul 3am...
memula tu aku keberatan gak nak jawab...
mana taknyer dalam banyak binatang..ada beberapa daemon tu adalah golongan monyet
eewwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!
Xmo...kalo dapat monyet..sah2 dia gelakkan aku mati2an!!!
like i dont know Zalie kan... wink3

Bila aku berkeras xnak jawab..Zalie keluarkan pistol n acu betul2 kat my right temporoparietal bone str8 to limbic area which control our libido...("p)
erks..so nak tak nak aku pon jawab la soklan tu dgn as J.U.J.U.R as possible...
since Zalie wont let his pistol down...
( wakakakaka best tak extended version a.k.a skala pembesaran 1000x ganda)

Then... it takes few minute to come out with the result...
i punya berdebar2 mengalahkan takut nak tunggu result Final exam Professional masa medical school...hehehe

then...... T.A.D.A..........




read by urself...
I myself pon cam tak caya je dgn the result tue ...

but i kinda agree with it..ngeh3

MODEST
PROUD
DEPENDABLE
RESPONSIBLE
SOLITARY

so my frens..
i might look nice outside...
lemah lembut..sopan santun..budi bahasa..pekerti mulia...
(i tgh guling2 atas lantai while typing those words..hahahahaha perasan x hengat!!!)
but inside me...im a lion...
NGAAUUMMM ( erk.....cam tu ke bunyi singa? cam rimau jek...)
wateva!!!
so B.E.W.A.R.E!!!

p/s same goes to my other 2 frens..kena paksa gak dgn si Zalie tue...
Rohe dapat spider
Tupong?...T.I.K.U.S!!!! hahahahahahaha
(pastu he repeat the test...huhuhu nak dpt butterfly la tu!!! V.E.R.A.N.G.A.N.!
jgn ko mimpi tajuk dia...hahahahahhahaha)

GRRRRRR......AM!!!!

Assalamualaikum...
Selamat tgh hari....

Another oncall story to share...

Just nak luahkan rasa tak puas hati kat one of my colleague.
yersterday i was oncall with one of my colleague...and it happened to be my senior...

Oncall during weekend mmg meletihkan..
just imagine workload of 9 doctors will only be done by 2 docs during the weekend.
If u get a good partner...it's not a problem...
but if u were paired with a $#%^* one!!! its a desasterous!!!
and yesterday...i was very unlucky...("_)

Yesterday morning, casualty a.k.a emergency department xsibuk mana...
so i helping her, round 2 wards...( its a written rules for 1st call Mo helping 2nd call MO doing rounds..kalo tak busy pagi2 )
as a return... he/she will help me @ the casualty after he/she finished doing her round ( which is also a written rules!!!)

BUT... not even a second pon...she turn up @ casualty to help me!!!
dah la buzy dari petang sampai ke mlm...patient x putus2 dtg kat casualty tu...
I settle everything sorg2 je...yg busy start from 7pm...and settle about 1am in the morning...
berenti mana sempat utk mkn n solat je la...

After settle everything i masuk tido laaa...
pukul 2pm...bunyi telefon....ingatkan ada kes kat kecemasan...
rupa2nyer my partner call....
dgn rasa tak bersalahnya she asked me to accompany her patient to HUSM which supposed to be her job!!!
Boleh guna reason mengadung utk xnak hantar patient!!!
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee kejizzzz sgt2!!!
I rasa nak menjerit je!!! tau la pulak nak mintak tolong kat org...
dah la aku tolong roundkan wad dia pagi tadi....pastu x tolong aku sikit habuk pon kat kecemasan...pastu bila time aku nak rehat...pandai pulak nak mintak tolong hantarkan kes!!!
rasa nak mengamuk sgt time tu...
i know she's my senior..but that doesnt mean she can order me sesedap rasa!!!

And wat make it WORSE...
its a case of cord prolapse!!!

(erks..to the non-medical personnel...cord prolapse tu maknanye instead of kluar kepala dulu masa nak deliver...yg ni keluar tali pusat dulu...kalo songsang keluar buttock dulu... dan kalo keluar tali pusat dulu..its an emergency..baby boleh lemas sebab oksigen tak sampai kepada bayi sebab tali pusat tu mengecut bila di luar rahim atau tali pusat tu terkepit oleh kepala baby)

So...as a doc yg acommpany patient tu...he/she kena insert fingers into patient's vagina and push the baby's head upward to prevent it from compressing the cords which further compromised the blood supply to the baby...
and you know wat..its not a PLEASANT thing to do as U think!!! ( gatal!!!)
sakit jari2 aku nak tolak kepala baby tu...dah la os 7-8 cm..dan mak dia nie asyik nak meneran jek...waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa("_)
sampai HUSM 1hr after that...lenguh trus tgn aku....

I pon pelik...dlm I marah2 ( dlm hati jela) i willing gak nak tolong dia... ( lembut sgt hati aku kan.... tu yg org pijak kepala tue....("_)
i kesian kat baby dlm kandungan dia je... kang kalo dia hantar and terhenjut2 dlm ambulance terus abortion...

Well..i dont mind helping her actually... tapi it would be nicer if she helps me petang tadi...
i akan offer accompany patient tu walaupon dia tak suruh...
ni tak...bila dah susah pandai pulak nak cari aku...
tak tau la aku g mlm td ikhlas ke tak...
but definitely aku tak puas hati...aku keje sorg2 dr petang sampai 1am...bila aku ada time utk rest..kena tolong dia plak...
balik sampai dlm pukul 4am... sampai2 je spital..aku masuk bilik and terus collapsed sampai kul 715am...
errkk termissed subuh..("p)
qada' jela jawapannyer..
tertido tak pe kan..hehehehe

p/s Sorry abg Eq...your sms pun xmampu nak membangunkan saya mcm biasa ...
too tired i guess!!!

sekian...